#Repost from my FB notes:
A note for the birthday dad in heaven
It’s been a decade 13 years since you left us, yet you’re still alive in
my heart & mind. I am extremely delighted every time I dream about you. I
keep & treasure those brief yet blissful moments to relieve the pain and
agony of your absence. One of the reasons why I am hesitant to have a glimpse
of your face when you were gone is because I want to keep you alive in my
memories. I still remember our last heart to heart talk, you asked me what my
plans are after graduation and I said without blinking my eyes that I’m going
to work overseas to earn a decent living. You took delight from my answer, not
knowing you wanted an assurance that I will not go off track after you leave. I
know you’ve always been so proud of me. I’ve witnessed with my own naked eyes
how tears rolled down from your eyes when I delivered my high school graduation
speech. I’ve brought you honour during those unforgettable moments but after
you left, I’ve disappointed you... In fact, I’ve brought you shame when I got
pregnant from a man you’ve never approved to be with me... I’ve brought so much
disgrace in the family. But hey Pa, look at me now... I was able to emerge from
the darkest tunnel that I have chosen to pass through, out of wilfulness. I
know in my heart that you are happy for me now in spite of all the heartaches
& indignity I have caused our family. I am now living a blissful &
blessed life with a man I truly love and deserve and that’s the best gift I can offer you on your birthday. I am
quite certain you are more than happy & contented to accept him as your son. You
dedicated all your life providing for our family to make sure your seven
children will become professionals and eventually lead a good life. You are one
great father, Papa. For me, you are the best! Happy, Happy Birthday! You are
deeply loved and terribly missed...
A beautiful letter to your dad. I would imagine he is smiling down on you and your lovely family. ♥
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I know, whereever he is right now, proud siya sa yo. For your dad, ikaw din ang the best! :)
ReplyDeleteOh! this made me wept. Missed my mom and dad, too.
ReplyDeleteThis post is a sweet tribute to your dad.
He's happy watching over you for sure. My Dad will be 18 years in heaven too this coming May 8, 2013. I was 18 when he left, just like you memories are fresh despite the very long time he left.
ReplyDeleteA wonderful tribute for a great dad. I believe he smiling in heaven at this very moment.
ReplyDeleteawwwwwwwww...what a wonderful letter...your dad must be very happy...this letter made me teary-eyed...sweet!
ReplyDeleteWhat a lovely tribute to your father. I lost mine ten years ago, I still wish that he is still around.
ReplyDeleteAm sure your dad is so proud of you today as he watches you every now and then from heaven.
ReplyDeleteSo touching my eyes are sweating a bit right now....
ReplyDeleteI am orphaned by my father for 14 years now and yet, it has never gotten better. I still miss him every single day. There will be a great reunion when Jesus comes again and we will see our departed loved ones once again. Keep the faith, sis!
can't help but be in tears again Che as I read this letter,
ReplyDeletefirst, for this is a beautiful tribute to your dad,
and 2nd, for remembering again your strength in standing up after others may see as failure, now, look at you, one happy being who was able to surpass it all. I am so happy for you, and your story never fails to inspire.
such a heartfelt and beatiful letter...thanks for sharing it with us. you are one darling daughter and i am sure your father is proud and happy for you in heaven and he is also raising his wine glass for a toast :-)
ReplyDeleteYour dad is so proud and happy for what you are now. I know he felt your love with this letter.
ReplyDeleteTears are welling up my eyes, Dokie while I was reading this. It actually blurred my vision reading down the last sentence but I made it. Hahaha! What a beautiful tribute for your Dad. I can feel so much heart was poured out into this letter. I commend you for fighting for the love of your life and eventually emerged victorious when you've proven everyone wrong- that indeed you have chosen the right and the best man for you.
ReplyDeleteThis post just made me miss my Dad, too. It's been a decade since we lost him. But deep down in our hearts we know that both our Dads are in a better place right now. Happy birthday to him! Hugs!
I know you know that tears are rolling down my eyes as I read on...and feeling it in my heart that your dad is happy wherever he is now and proud of you more than ever...:)and in the wildest of my memory I know he must have already met my dad up there too :D
ReplyDeleteI'm crying, tears rolling down my face, I know exactly how you feel I lost my dad 3 years ago and today his 55th birthday. ( One day after valentines) sweety no matter how much time goes by ur dad"s memories will never fade away and he will always protect and watch over you. Life without a dad who you love to the end of the world is very painful. I wish ur dad and my dad a wonderful heavenly blessed bithday ... Till we meet them again
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